☆ life's bitch ☆ (dlaozset) wrote in bicebu,
☆ life's bitch ☆
dlaozset
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Much Love to Chris Carraba

...i never get depressed anymore...just really mopey...

and it happens way too often.

i expect way too much...
i try too hard, you might say...but i thikn i don't try hard enough...

eitherway, it never works.
and i walk away alone, and feeling guilty and horrible about it.

i don't know what about Barnes & Noble; maybe cause i've done it before...but everytime i walkinto the doors, i feel like "Maybe I'll meet someone here...it happened before 9to which only later do i remember that the guy i met there turned out to be a raging manwhore, only with me to...yea...asshole Shane...

...That's ultimitly where i want to meet someone. A Deep thinker. a reader. a poet. a genuinly great person; the person i try to be......and i assume EVERYONE there is this kindof person...

ggrr...i'm overzelous. i'm too eager...

i need a way to get rid of that...i know i try too hard...but nothing seems to work...

i need to find a club...or like in Baton Rouge, that Rainbow Cafe place...
*flashback*
sometimes i miss the Cafe...
but that's different

...*sigh* *Stop being Mopey; tell them the good news*

I have an Interview at Carmike 10...which is *so* great cause it's literally, what, 2 minutes away from my house?!

It'll be nice to have somesort of income...

I hope i get the job...and i hope i can hold it...

=(

the whole issue of love fucks with my head. it does.

...maybe...just maybe...all i'm looking for is a best friend. or someone i can TOTALLY open up to...

best friends with romantic benifits...

(why i i set that appart from anything else...that's all ANYONE wants...)

Late

I'm Out
Ryan
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